Troublesome

I walk through the market of belonging. Stalls selling flags I've never wanted. The eyes find me. Not with hate. Just the quiet confusion of a door that was never installed. I am not rebellion. Rebellion still kneels to what it fights. I am the man who never…

Fail Fast, Succeed Faster

It was a late night in 2012, phone blowing up with texts. "The wheels have come off the wagon!" My business partner was losing it while I was at the gym. Rushed home, jumped on the computer, and found the problem. I had configured an AWS LoadBalancer wrong.…

Navigating CAP Theorem: An Analogy for Nerds

The number of times someone has mentioned CAP Theorem to me unprompted? I can count them on one finger. One. In 25+ years. Six years ago. Story time. It was an interview candidate. They brought it up and I nearly knocked my Liquid Death over. We talked about it for…

Power And Purpose

They chase power calling it purpose. As if the climb were the same as the cause. As if the throne would tell them who they were once they sat in it. But power doesn't answer questions. It only ends them. And purpose, real purpose, never needed a kingdom.…

The Batman

I don't follow Marvel and DC, I barely know the difference (actually I DON'T know the difference). Anyway, this is hands down, my favorite batman ever. The music, the sombre and emotions batman had, it was deep. I give this 10 solid faces out of 10.…

Regret Has No Place In Focused Minds

What yesterday cost is already spent. You don't mourn currency. You spend it or you starve. The wound taught you where the knife goes. That's not trauma. That's education. The focused mind doesn't linger at the altar of what was. It takes…

1 Year Later.

II have exerted every effort to evade the progression to today, yet here I am, confronting the very moment I sought to avoid. There I was alive, yet barely clinging to the fragile thread of life—a broken silhouette against the harsh asphalt. It's been 1 year. On…

I ❤️ Music

I don't like the Beatles. I also don't like U2. I couldn't name a single album or song. Both suck. Admit it so we can move on now. Growing up in the 80s, music rewired me. I still remember dragging my dad's…

Event Hell Is Just Your Login Method

Event systems are something powerful. Whether you're in a microservice, a monolith, or an ACL layer, they make scalability and maintainability actually possible. "After a user logs in, I want to send them a survey!" "Just add it to the code after the login happens.…

No Place To Run

No place to run, no place to hide, the footsteps echoing are your own, pressed into soil you thought you'd left behind, circling back to the unmarked stone. There is a vivid uncertainty in your actions, each gesture trailing smoke and question marks, your hands betraying what your…